So, I have this tendency to completely avoid anything that hurts my feelings or makes me upset. Ask any of my longtime friends... conflict is only a pain I endure if I love you deep enough to put my hatred of confrontation temporarily behind me, and a lot of times it looks like me saying, … Continue reading sun and shield
JOY JOY JOY!!!!
Lately, life has been a lil less than spectacular. I've been working six to seven days each week and barely sleeping because my air conditioning was out for over three weeks. Ya know what happens when I run on fumes? Tears. And ya know what happens when my usually-cool home becomes a sauna? Gnats in … Continue reading JOY JOY JOY!!!!
If you know me at all, you know my birthday is a day that I dread. If my mama knew that, she would be so sad because she would feel like she failed at celebrating me all these years, but my parents have actually done the world's greatest job at showing me how much they … Continue reading Birthday blues
seasons of sowing
To be honest, there were a lot of things that my 2018 didn't hold. I didn't move to a new city or new dorm or a new country for even just a few months... I stayed in one place for a whole year. Summer and all. I didn't really have a schedule change... no new … Continue reading seasons of sowing
when thankfulness seems impossible
Lately, there have been a lot of things that have made me question, even if for just a second, God's goodness. People I love are hurting. People I love deeply are losing babes and parents and even spouses every passing day. Disease has been apart of my family's life since I was a child, but just … Continue reading when thankfulness seems impossible
on fish and singleness
So, I'm convinced I have the world's cutest betta fish. His name is Finley and he's genuinely the most beautiful and lovable lil creature. And I do, in fact, love him very, very much. Every morning I wake up alone. I wash my face, brush my teeth, put my contacts in, and head to the … Continue reading on fish and singleness
now and forevermore
Lately, my heart has been in constant panic. Every second of every day, there's chaos in what used to be the quiet spaces of my soul. My very being is frantic, my brain incapable of turning off the worry and fear that reside in (what used to be) even the most peaceful of corners. It's … Continue reading now and forevermore
So, I'm starting to learn to admit that I'm a hopeless romantic. I've always been "above" it... I mean, really, who needs rom coms or cheesy love songs? Not me. Never me. Except my heart melts at the thought of getting flowers... at someone knowing me enough to know exactly which concoction of blooms makes … Continue reading enthralled
One of my very favorite passages in the Bible is Psalm 139. This is where that verse is found... ya know the one stitched onto every throw pillow ever made? "For I am fearfully and wonderfully made." It's one that we all cling to when we need to remember that who we are isn't an … Continue reading uproot
This season of my life is very shaky. It feels like with one move, any given part of my life could topple to the ground and I don't even know where I'd start to try and rebuild the pieces. I seriously feel like my life is Jenga... which stresses. me. out. Nothing in my life … Continue reading remembering you